So.  I’m annoyed.  And as a result of being annoyed at such a ridiculous thing, I am also selfish, thoughtless, stupid and self obsessed. 

Yeah, I’m a winner.

Still dealing with health crap which I’ve actually kind of gotten used to.  I’m tired, slow witted, unmotivated and grumpy.  But last week I came up with new symptoms that really just pushed me too far and pissed me off.   Want to know the tragic tale of woe that has befallen me?

Grab a tissue.

My hands and feet are numb.

I know.  I’ll wait while you pull yourself together.

Oh, the horror.

Ok.  Its not tragic.  And a perfectly normal occurance with the health stuff I’m dealing with.  But – now I cannot knit or crochet.  And thats like telling me that I can’t eat.  Don’t mess with my food or my fiber crafts. 

Now I know there are people dealing with much worse.  MUCH worse.  And its why I don’t really blog about stuff or even really want to talk about it.   I deal with the hair falling out, the dehydration, the constant pills that I have to time out daily, the weakness, the new meds I’m guinea pig testing, the fatigue, the dim wittedness (its a word), the needle pokes three times a week and the fact that private areas of my body have been viewed by more eyes this year than ever in my whole life.  

But why the hands? 

And how shallow am I?

Don’t answer that.

My doc thinks she may have the answer but I have to wait for lab results on Monday.   This means a weekend of replacing knit/crochet with buying knit/crochet products.  That…. I can do.  I’ll show them.  Whoever ‘them’ are.

A pic of me annoyed.  Just for shits and giggles. 

This concludes the whine ass blog post.